Fashion Week

Was looking through Charlotte Fashion Week stuff online and have to say I'm already excited about it..even though it's not until September!

These are pictures from last year. Thelma Carraway Designs.."Momma T" to me!

CNCFW 2009.. Can't wait!

Focusing On Me

I think it's time for a much needed update.

For one, I have decided to take a step back from life a little bit and just focus on myself. Sometimes it's not the PEOPLE around you that make you less than happy.. just the SITUATIONS. I have to remind myself of that at times. I've always been the kind of person who tries to put other people's happiness before my own.. but I know I have to break that habit. Sometimes I allow myself to be unhappy just because I know the other people around me are content.. and I don't want to say anything for fear of affecting THEM. I don't think this is a bad thing though. Eventually SOMEONE is gonna benefit from my constant need to keep people happy. lol.

I went to the softball game today after lunch with an old friend. I only caught the end of the game, but got to see some people that made my day :) It's still hard to watch softball without feeling some type of jealousy, or anger, or upset. It's a shame really because I'd love to fully enjoy myself.. I just miss it too much. It's like I'm always mad at the people who get to play because they're living out my dream. How unfair is that?! Oh well, I do my best to just cheer and appreciate at least the fact that I ever had the chance to play.

I'm headed to bed.. Tera won't be at work tomorrow because she was allergic to some food she ate today. I had to take her to urgent care :( Poor Thing! I'd rather her be at work, but she needs the rest!

Catch you guys later!

The Sister is Coming to Visit

My big sis is coming to visit tomorrow! She's only a year earlier.. but acts much older than that.
We're shooting (pictures) for a project of hers. Should be a good time.

I'm so excited that she and I will be able to merge two of our interests! (me: modeling, her: photography) Don't worry.. I'll post some pics when I get them..

Have a great Friday everyone!

Communication is Key

TLC once said it in a song "Communication is the key to life.. Communication is the key to love.. Communication is the key to us.." It was in their album Fanmail.

It's funny how sometimes you're just SO sure your point makes sense that you're blind to someone else's perfectly valid point as well. I think I'm rather good at accepting other people's points, and probably not so good at forgiving people when they don't understand mine. I've realized that in a few circumstances especially. Today being one of them.

Without giving away too many details, I think my past "communication" in relationships has shaped the way I communicate today. I so desperately feel the need for people to "get" my point because I don't think I've ever felt very understood by a significant other...always fighting for someone to believe me or at the very least not defend every word they have to say. Even after feeling understood.. I often think that later I really wasn't.

Similar situation? I'd love to hear about it...

What Not To Wear

Currently watching my favorite show.."What Not to Wear." I love how they tear through people's wardrobe's and they meet incredible resistance until they realize how good they look in the end.

I wonder if I would react like that? I'm sure I have things Stacey and Clinton would get rid of.

If the tables were turned my friends! If the tables were turned..

Monday Evening

So, I'm awake. And I shouldn't be - again. You'd think after being on this schedule since June of last year I would be at least one step closer to understanding how to make it work.

A few things about today...

One, almost everyday at some point I think about my job and realize how lucky I am. Not only HAVING a job, having a job that I like so much. thank goodness for my partner in crime, Rae..her sarcasm gets me through the day!

Two, I had lunch with Katrina again today. Well, not lunch, more like a chat plus dessert! Were working on our friendship. Even though I know she doesn't really "agree" with everything at least I feel like I can be honest with her. That's the basis of friendship right? AND -- she's in Charlotte Woman Magazine in this month's issue!

The rest of House, then some 24.. then bedtime! Newsroom dark and early!

Rainy Sunday

I've slept more this weekend than is probably healthy.

I actually woke up this morning around 5am and wondered to myself if I had slept clear through the day and it was actually 5 in the evening! How weird! Sleep is one of the odd things though.. if you don't get enough of it..you're tired. But if you get too much.. you're tired anyway. It's like you can't win!

It's raining again today. It rained all day yesterday too. Messed up my plans to go check out the softball tournament this weekend across the street at Charlotte. But I guess that's good. It forced me to stay home and clean a little. And somehow I allowed my laundry to stack up beyond belief.. so I guess the rain my be good for me. Sometimes it takes a force of nature to keep me inside!

Gotta get my taxes done this week.

Trying to come up with cool good twin vs. evil twin ideas for me and my sister's photo shoot next weekend. ideas??